Wednesday, April 23, 2008
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| I guess its my fault
I fell to hard, too fast
And I ignored my inner voice playing in my head, he'll break your heart in two it said, over and over again
Thoughts spin through my mind a thousand times but still these rhymes are twisted fairytales
And its scary how frail I really am, how unstable the ground I stand is shifting my land
And I demand he admit his feelings weren't non-existant
But he turns as cold as ice, he was my only vice
And all my tries were feeble attempts at a glimpse into his soul
His only goal to pull me apart, see what makes me tick
But the wick of my flame has died all the same
And now all I crave is his taste, and the feel of his skin against mine
Those dark probing eyes pulling me apart at the seams
And now I hold back my screams and let the dark demented things that roam in my mind question what's inside of me
I beg you to set me free, let my heart bleed out till there's nothing left to break, because I can't take one more second of this deafening silence
It prays on me with violence, screaming like violins; heartwrenching in its sins
Another chapter begins and I see its never the end, I'm eternal no matter how badly my soul bends and writhes in pain, I'm not dying, I'm just going insane
I wish I could've tamed my emotions, kept you with me a little longer
But these feelings come pouring out like oceans
Every caress, every kiss, every penetrating gaze I felt my defenses melt, I felt my heart hook deeper into this sadistic game
I'll never be the same
I can only hope I don't ache for you forever, I can only hope I don't break and this love fever does
I hope these chemicals flush from my system
I hope my vision clears and my fears abade
I hope my heart doesn't fade into numbing coldness
I hope my boldness in love doesn't diminish into walls that finish these barriers and wrap around my soul
That you don't pull me into oblivion
That my sun will rise again, and I can give love another try, another time
And hopefully mine will be returned not turned away like a leper trying to play with the distinguished of society
My propriety turned to dust when I felt this unquenchable lust
This passion; I've never felt such a tragic addiction
And the infliction of your rejection was like knives in my stomach, and I just can't stomach this burning pain, this dying connection
This is my last grain of comprehension
I will fall to descension, I'll suck them all and I'll never break their fall
I'll eat their insides and make my rides fast and dirty
As the tides begin to push I'll shift alone this time
Because I can't handle another tear at my soul
My fire will be fueled by lust, and I'll let this love turn to ashes
I'll rise again inside this creation
I'll never accept another soul invasion
This is my final revelation
That I cannot station myself to another heartfelt admittance of my truths
These wounds will heal, the black and blues that paint my soul in bruises will seal up and I won't give up on life
No matter how much this strife rips at my insides, I'll never play nice again. |
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